So as I stated earlier today, today marks 4 years of marriage for me and Chase. Currently Chase and I have been apart for 4 whole weeks. We've been separated from one another longer before (one summer he was gone for 6 weeks doing an externship in Ukraine), so you'd think I'd be use to this. And so far I've been doing pretty well; I've been keeping myself busy. But yesterday was hard.
Sundays are always a bit harder when you have a kid because church always seems to mess up their schedule regardless of what time it starts at. That's what happens when church is 3 hours long. Don't get me wrong though, I love going to church. I love contributing to discussions and feeling uplifted, but that's the thing. Now that Mila walks she is demanding independence. So, I'm lucky if I get to sit and actually listen during church. I also have a new calling that is resulting in me having to hand Mila off to my parents during the different hours, and since everything in Mila's world has been rocked the past two months (moving and losing her daddy) she is very clingy to me, her one constant. Needless to say, she's a mess during these handoffs. Because of all this by the time church is over, I'm exhausted. I have such a greater appreciation for single parents. I don't know how they do it day in and day out.
So, yesterday I felt the weight of being alone. I know I am blessed right now to be with my parents, and they are a huge help. But, I sure miss my best friend. And I miss my close friends in Utah.
So, fast forward to today. I was feeling better--sleep will do that for a person. I was driving and the new Jason Mraz song, "I Won't Give Up", came on the radio. I love this song and today it hit close to home for me. To bring a smile on my face today I decided to celebrate my anniversary by making this little slideshow to this song to surprise Chase. So here you go babe! Some of my favorite moments from almost the past 5 years. Hope you get a chance to view it today. Regardless of the distance I'm looking up and appreciating you more and more each day. And I'm looking forward to seeing you soon. Loves!
"I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up"