Monday, June 25, 2012

I won't give up

So as I stated earlier today, today marks 4 years of marriage for me and Chase.  Currently Chase and I have been apart for 4 whole weeks.  We've been separated from one another longer before (one summer he was gone for 6 weeks doing an externship in Ukraine), so you'd think I'd be use to this.  And so far I've been doing pretty well; I've been keeping myself busy.  But yesterday was hard.  

Sundays are always a bit harder when you have a kid because church always seems to mess up their schedule regardless of what time it starts at.  That's what happens when church is 3 hours long.  Don't get me wrong though, I love going to church.  I love contributing to discussions and feeling uplifted, but that's the thing.  Now that Mila walks she is demanding independence.  So, I'm lucky if I get to sit and actually listen during church.  I also have a new calling that is resulting in me having to hand Mila off to my parents during the different hours, and since everything in Mila's world has been rocked the past two months (moving and losing her daddy) she is very clingy to me, her one constant.  Needless to say, she's a mess during these handoffs.  Because of all this by the time church is over, I'm exhausted.  I have such a greater appreciation for single parents.  I don't know how they do it day in and day out.  

So, yesterday I felt the weight of being alone.  I know I am blessed right now to be with my parents, and they are a huge help.  But, I sure miss my best friend.  And I miss my close friends in Utah.  

So, fast forward to today.  I was feeling better--sleep will do that for a person.  I was driving and the new Jason Mraz song, "I Won't Give Up", came on the radio.  I love this song and today it hit close to home for me.  To bring a smile on my face today I decided to celebrate my anniversary by making this little slideshow to this song to surprise Chase.  So here you go babe!  Some of my favorite moments from almost the past 5 years.  Hope you get a chance to view it today.  Regardless of the distance I'm looking up and appreciating you more and more each day.  And I'm looking forward to seeing you soon.  Loves!

"I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up"

4 Years

I have loved having this man by my side now for 4 years.  It's been a drag not being together these past 4 weeks (and I don't even want to think about the 9 weeks of separation starting next month), but I can't wait to be reunited in just three days!  Happy anniversary babe!

Monday, June 18, 2012

Family Pictures

I am happy to finally post our Gunnell family pictures.  Again, our photographer was Brooke Moon.  The photos turned out pretty good if I do say so myself.  Hopefully there's one that Chase's parents like well enough to mount above their fireplace.  Those of our friends that have been to their house know that the current picture above the mantel is not the most flattering of Chase ;).  In his defense, did any of us not look awkward during our teenage years?!  I mean come on.
Don't you love this classic shot of the grandparents and grandkids?  I personally love Tyler's face on the far right.
So the last time we took family pictures this funny incident occurred.  So the siblings felt they should recreate the moment.
Our family's little shoot.
By far my favorite shot of the day!  I love both of their smiles!!
The whole family together at last!  Don't worry we planned ahead and had Karlee's fiance join in the pictures.  I mean shoot, if it takes another 10 years to update the mantel photo we better get him in it!

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Ode to Chase

Since we are apart this Fathers' Day, I felt it necessary to post my poem here on our blog since I can't hand it to Chase in person.

 Ode to the Father You've Become
(Fathers' Day 2011)
When this picture was first taken,
You're carefree life was just forsaken.
A fresh father on the rise,
You had stars in your tired eyes.

You knew you had lots to learn,
but I didn't know I'd get my turn
To learn more about the man
Who put a ring upon my hand.

This year I've learned a lot
And I want to hit every spot.
But I don't think I can make it rhyme
As I write in poetic line.

So this time can I cheat?

Wait, you're not here to stop me.  So, I'll do what I want :)  As I was chatting with your grandma today I realized how much I've learned about you as I have watched you as a father this past year.  I learned that you will work hard to provide for our family even if it means bending over backwards to meet deadlines and requirements.  I learned that you can handle a lot on your plate and that you are really good at balancing family time, work (which was going to school), and church commitments.  I learned that you are the protective mother bear in our relationship (wink wink).  I learned that no matter how long your day has been you still help out around the house and try to lighten my load.  I learned that I love you even more than I did just one year ago.  I love and appreciate you so much.

"I love you not only for who you are but for who I am [and the type of mother you help me to be] when I am with you."